Things That Really Suck Quite Often

Sometimes things just suck and some Things suck all the time. so in no particular the thing that suck for me on a continuing basis

• Depression it’s a real downer. You never know when you mood will lift but you can be assured is can go down faster than and intern on Clinton.
• Anti-Depression medication. it sucks, it can and does cause weight gain. That makes me even more depressed.
• Many of the medications I have been on over the past close to 10yrs have some really crappy side effects. I already have respiratory problems I don’t need medication that causes respiratory problems as a side effect.
• Meds that make your heart feel as though it will jump out of your chest and makes you all shaky and jittery. oh and apparently can eat at your stomach and intestine and  cause ulcers.
• Bi-Polar disorder, at least I know why shit doesn’t’ make sense half the time.
• ADD really? that’s why I screw up so much shit. I can’t stay focused most of the time. If I become obsessed with something I still have a hard time focusing but it’s easier to stay on task if I’m working on something I am obsessed with.
• Racing thoughts yup I think it goes with the ADD thing
• Anxiety such a lovey thing non stop adrenaline rush from hell! sometime it can run for days. most often if I am tired.
• insomnia I usually have to be exhausted before I can sleep for any length of time.
• Avoidance issues I just can’t seem to relate to other people very well apparently so I avoid them. I even avoid the people that I enjoy spending time with!

A lot of the medications side effects suck. If medical Marijuana works as well as people claim it does then I’m willing to give it a shot. It can’t be any worse than the crap I have to go through now. I have primarily been a drinker over the years. I was never really into smoking pot. I never bothered to learn  much about it. Needless to say I have learned a lot over the last year, well almost a year.  I quit drinking last September. so I have been virtually vice-less for almost 7 full months!

All my problems while for me are difficult to deal with but I know there are people with worse problems than the ones that I have. The people around the world that have suffered from severe natural disasters. Earthquakes, floods, tsunamis, fires and in some areas looters and gangs roaming among the refugees beating the helpless and raping women left and right all because of  a disaster that has disrupted the normal law and order  of the region.

Though I struggle with my situation it is most assuredly better than what many people will be facing in the coming weeks. I’ve been to Japan, beautiful country, great people. Devastated by an earthquake, then the tsunamis hit and finally the Nuclear Reactors are near melt down. from what I know of the people of Japan, they will rebuild, they will recover eventually and they will be a stronger country when they complete their recovery efforts.